DID HE WATCH?!?

If you do nothing in a difficult time, your strenght is limited, Rescue those being attacked and taken off to death and save those stumbling toward slaughter.
If you say , "But we did not know about this," won't he who weighs hearts consider it?
Won't he who protects your life know?
won't he repay a person according to his work?
He lives and he watches, Right?, Just curious, do not doubt his love and all that but i know he loves us and cares about us and knows us just woundering if you watched the scene......
A Tusti woman, what was her crime, what had she done to deserve such treatmetn, so we choose our parents?, do we choose our looks? which country to belong to? we always find ourselves where we are, we never choose hospitals to be born from right.....He is always watching even when we are born...She was born Tutsi, grew up in Rwanda, very Beautiful and graceful, polite and calm just like all the people in Rwanda, one day all her beauty and value was over looked she lost her 9 month old baby, as if that was not enough, over 15 men raped her taking turns, very sure looked at each other as in approval of what they had done, not sure what they would do next after destroying her and her screaming could nto even save her at that point very powerless and helpless, they watched her in pain and as if that was not enough, They got a stick pushed it through her virgina to her head, there she met her creator, she had her last breath, she passed on, she was labled with a stick through her body, her body lay there and she was gone, her spirit out of her and he Watched...............he watched all that happenign to her, was that her fate, was she being punished for being Tutsi?, for Being Beautiful?. what was her crime? He still watched, he always watches over us. Yes he Watched and got her out of trouble, he rescued her , not the way we wanted to, but the best that he saw for her, his ways are not our ways and his thoughts are far from our thoughts, he watches over Us, He watched over Her.

I AM SO SORRY, BEAUTIFUL ONE.

Ever heard someone tell you their story and your are speechless?, all you can say is Beautiful one i am so sorry, how could they do that to you?, how could someone think of hurting someone as beautiful as you? how can some one think of using some one as innocent as you are? you are so beautiful and full of joy and laughter and that could not stop someone from inflicting pain on you, destroying your innocence and devaluing you making you seem worthless.
I am so sorry Beautiful one that you had to go through what you went through.
Went to a house of beautiful girls yesterday and my heart was torn apart listening to mariam their Mentor, friend and coordinator explain to us what these beautiful girls have gone through, was not so painful as watching them dance and play and without saying a word tears droped at how someone gets the energy to hurt someone like them, i had pain in my heart and asked Father(GOD) to take control and take charge, i am so sorry there was no one to help you, no one to protect you and no one to stand by you, i wish i were there i wish i could have doen something to stop what happened to you , i wish you had never lived to be one of the people that were hurt by those withoug hearts, i am sorry beautiful one, i am sorry, i wish i could turn the clock but i can not all i can to is stand by you. Now that you are out of their claws, protect you so you can never be their prey anymore, restore your value for you are priceless, let you know how much i love you and how much i will not let anyone take advantage of you, let you know that Father(GOD) loves you and he has always been by your side and he has a good plan for you, let you know how precious you are to the world and most of all, help you realise that you can make many other who have gone through the same tragedy you have to overcome their fears and be whole again, Let you know that you are Treasures.................

Life has Changed

Thought peer pressure would be among teenagers only oh..how wrong i was, i have not blogged so much and did not think it was inportant until i read some of my friends blogs rescently.
i did not know why i had to blog and its importance, because all the people i cared for were around me and got to know everything they had to know, well it is different now, my friends have moved, life has changed, they are no longer around me, the new friends i have met are also leaving and i need to get them posted about what is happening in my life because they keep me posted about what is happenign in their lives too.
Now here i am again this time ready for this and this time i have a clear reason for blogging and thanks to all that have been able to make me understand why i need to do this, thanks to JenniferWilmore, it was from you that i first learn about blogging and Jade and Shelah Acker, who have always given people updates about their family, Robyn Cash who wrote about me :) missy Ward who was able to Voice my thoughts through her blog on several occassions, Christina maddalone, reading her blog givesd me reason to do the same and know it will be fine.
Patrick just started a new blog and with all these people blogging, i think i can do it to and i think i will survive.
i can do it and i will do it.