If you asked me five years ago what i wanted to be in future and where I wanted to be, I would answer you at a blink, I knew exactly what I wanted or how I wanted it to be.. I was in control or so I thought I always wanted to fight to get to the top. To get to where I wanted to be, I was driving, I was on the wheel, it was mine and it was going to work my way.
It is different today, i do not know what I want any more the more I have grown in the knowledge if God, the more i realise, life is not in our hand and we have never ever been in control of our lives, however hard it may seem to believe but its the truth.
All our hard work in school and good behaviour at home or character with friends had never ever been in our hands, it was God in charge totally, whether we like it or not whether we believe it or not. It is totally in his control, he has our lives in his hands and he is in check with all of us..
Whether we believe it or not, right now at this moment we are just where he wants us to be and he has a reason, he has a great plan for us and his plan is for good and not for evil, to give us a hope and a future.
we do not have to fight, we only have to be in the battle field and watch him fight for us, all we have to do is live our lives in him, when we live in him, we get directions from him and commands on where he wants us to be or what he wants us to do at that particular time and place, we have to trust him and know that he has our lives in his hands.
Realising that now, gives me rest, and also gives me fulfilment knowing i do not have to fight and in case at some point I get over myself trying to fix things on my own, i will get tired and lean right back on him because he is always there. Sometimes I am stubborn and will want to test him, because he knows me, he i never surprised we have a relationship, we talk fight and get mad at each other but at the back of our minds especially my mind, I know he Loves me and I do not have to Fight, He fights for me, THE FIGHT IS OVER!
